he stayed in Intensive care unit in a hospital in binan, Laguna for 4 days. Pneumonia. those cruel hard pleghms all over his lungs causes it all. They installed the oxegyn tube, at iba pa. things to monitor his heart, at tube para doon ipasok ang pagkain niya...Then we told his doctors we will take him out and transferred him in a private room so that we could be with him and he can see us everytime he opens his eyes. The doctor laid out options for us to choose. To put him in a machine called ventilator, the other one - butasan ang leeg niya para dun ipasok ang tubo na hihigop sa plema. My whole being rebelled to this. We can`t allow them to do that. We know of people who died of complications because of this, and they were younger than papa.
I have a God who knows everything. Our lives is in His hands. He knows what`s best for papa. And it`s only in Him that I trust. Seeing papa in his hospital bed everyday just make my heart seems to burst. Looking frail......can`t even utter a word to tell us his pain. If only he knows I have million pains inside of me..
If only i could take you home.........right now.... Away from this hospital.. :-(
Last night, he seems restless. Trying to say something i can`t comprehend, he took hold of my hand as if afraid to let me go. I could see the sufferings in his eyes...I rubbed his back with my other hand, stroking his brow ........crying as I sang trying to put him to sleep. can`t stop hot tears from flowing. I realize how much i love him. Can`t bear the thought of losing him... Not now Lord....please!!
But if only to stop his sufferings......thy will be done Lord!!
Papa, i want you to know - you`re the best father in the whole world. I am so proud i belong to you as your dear daughter..... I love you pang. You are a wonderful father to us all and I know you will understand if I tell you how much I really do, God knows!
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i have tears in my eyes as i read this, Mom. Will keep you and your whole family in prayers. Love you all.
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