new car, kelan?

it`s 4 olock dawn and am still up! I mean can`t go back to sleep. I was dead tired this afternoon, after our praise team`s practice, had an early bed rest but woke up at one oclock am. Ang ingay ni hubby habang nanonood ng wrestling match. Sigaw to the max..... nanalo ang manok niya, hehehe! Ayan, di na tuloy ako makatulog.

Charis just left for work. i feel bad that we can`t drive him to his workplace like we used to. I missed the early morning air and the occassional passing by the baywalk area to savor the smell of the sea. A month ago, our grumpy old car got busted again while we`re on our way to fetch dave at the airport from his mission trip. We had a mechanic to examine it over and said its the carburator. I guess it needs a new replacement this time.... i mean, the carburator, lol. Though the car itself is already considered "junk" by most people. 16 yrs. old na po siya. oldie one. Even cars needs to retire. We badly needed a new replacement of Victory. (that`s her name). And she lived up to that name. Nariyan na yong nalubog kami sa baha, sa putik at iba pang pagsubok sa daan, pero naiuuwi pa rin niya kaming safe and sound. lol. But then again, ang Dios ang nakakaalam kung kailan dadating ang magiging kapalit ni Victory. He has the resources. Kami, nag-aantay kung kelan niya ibibigay. .... For the meantime she`s still considerably good and running. Can take us places whether far or near.. kahit anong oras sa araw or gabi man.... Sira nga lang ang carburator niya ngayon... pero `pag napalitan na, ok na siya ulit...

We have been praying for a new one. This time meron kaming dream car. I already have a picture of it in my mind, of what its going to be. Mas maganda yata van na naman!! I had one posted in one of my entries. just one like it. I am protecting that dream and won`t let anyone tell me we can`t reach and have it. Ganyan katindi!! aba.... Pinangako na ng Dios yan... Hawak na Niya sa mga kamay Niya!! We claim it. granted!!

Masarap mangarap sa Panginoon. Ang dami kong pangarap.. Siyempre, isa lang ang sasakyan sa mga yun. Someone said, dreams give a life hope and purpose. and I believe this. For now i realize and enjoy it for myself

Can`t help being anxious about our upcoming church anniversary. So much things to do and we only got a week more to arrange everything.

i just wanna tell myself to think simple..... just simple. Time and things will come to pass whether we like it or not. Kung ano na lang meron, eh di yun na lang, di ba? But i hope it will be a time well remembered like all the past anniversary years we had... I`m sure many of our brethren na nasa iba nang place at churches ay uuwi sa HCJC and will worship with us. You know, ang mga brethren namin ay "morag mga taga Bohol. Mouli gyud sa bohol kung fiesta...." I don`t know what motivates them, but we`re sure we will be glad to see them again....

ok i am starting to feel groggy...at last i`m sleepy. I`m gonna dream of my van again...

oh well, nothing much that will interest you....but thanks for reading, hehehe!!

i have to be in dreamland right at this very moment.....nyt everyone.

another journey....

It`s been over a week ago since i last posted. it seemed days are more faster now. They passed me by so swiftly. where have they gone?

To recap, it was charis` birthday last monday (January 7). He didn`t want any big fuss about it. We just had it simple and quite. We managed to make him blow his cake at 11:30 almost midnight, a very late one as you can see and supposed to be a birthday dinner!!! My boy is now an adult. Pede nang magkaroon ng sariling pamilya. Where has my little boy gone?. The one who always has that big, innocent smile, jumping up and down with excitement everytime balloons and cake are present on his birthday...

just realized, i am now a mom to adults.

it`s a new journey for me. another phase of my life, and i am achingly learning and accepting to myself what that means.

I will never have those little boys back who love to hug and sit with me whenever i rested from a tiring day.

i will never have them who needed me to help with their assignments in school that was due the next day... and shouting, "mommm, i`m home" at the top of their voice upon coming home from school at the end of the day.

those little boys who love to tag along with me to the malls asking if i could buy things for them...grinning in sheer joy upon acquiring a toy and some simple things they asked.

what i have now are adult children who are responsible, independents, who have thoughts and mind of their own...

maybe that is why the sadness that welcomes me every morning... i miss those days...... i miss my little boys. lol. I was always a part of their days even their thoughts. Those times when their life were wrapped around mine and mine theirs... Now, everything they do are directed to the things they need to accomplish for themselves and for their future... and me, simply in the background. Not the main character anymore....

But i will not continue to dwell upon my sorrow...... but on so many comforting thoughts.

yes, they are that way now because of all the hours and hours hubby and I spent with them, molding, teaching and nurturing them. Now its time to step back and be the mom of these adults, huh?

It feels good to reminisce for with them are many treasured memories. But perhaps its now time to concentrate in looking forward to the new adventure with my adult children instead of always looking back at what we were and what they were.

I wish all the dreams they are building for themselves will all come true. This is my desire for them with every fiber in me.... I wish my kids all the happiness they deserve to have. God, you know this is my prayer..

When all good success be acquired, then i could say, my past days were well accounted for.

after all the celebrations, what do I get?

We had tremendous time of fellowship with our church people last Sunday. It was our thanksgiving service since it was the last Sunday of the previous year..... It was an all-day fellowship. We had time of worship in the morning and "foods" in late afternoon. So much food equals so much fun...That`s what it was.... food made the difference, i should say. Everyone went home loaded, satisfied and grinning. Nice way to say goodbye to the old year, huh?

I felt so lazy when i woke up the following morning. I did a heavy cleaning around the house before calling it a day that night. It was as if a storm came and messed the place up after all those people left me in total despair. Everyone in my family were dead tired and just slept it off, and all the others who were supposed to help me have gone home... I just can`t sleep leaving my place this way!! So as a good mother would be doing, i dusted, washed the floors `til it shined, swept and re-arranged everything in their usual places up to the last item...

And this morning, i have to rush to the supermarket, will do the cooking and preparations for the "media noche" tonite. I wish i will have this day for a day off and can the new year`s eve would wait until tomorrow?..... wahuhu....... move lady, the day will pass even without you!! So off i went, gone through the long lines in the store, did the cooking, serving and intertaining.... yeheyy, i survived it all.

We were having fun. lots of food again. Remie brought some menu that she cooked herself, and mine, our chinese neighbor brought us 2 kinds of recipes also. Lots of desserts. "lahat pampataba"!! Its always fun when you`re with the people you love. We had gift-giving. Simple gifts they were but made us feel real good accepting our little wrapped gift, whatever it is inside.... basta may regalo.

You know how Pinas new year celebration goes....The loudest noise, the merrier. In our place in Malacanang, where almost all our neighbors are rich, we had fireworks display left and right and it was all so beautiful. Kami, dalawang "fountains" lang na sinindihan namin when the clock striked midnight. Then "torotot" na at mga lusis na binili ni jeff. Fun, fun, fun, really fun especially when you can shout at the top of your voice without people apprehending you for doing so. Eh, new year nga eh!!

We watched one or two films until dawn, `til our eyes dropped. Oh, just so you`d ask, it was a nice inspirational movie. When i watched it the first time, it has brought tears to my eyes...It`s about hope. That hope is a good thing, and good things never dies... It`s a timely movie for the new year....We`ve got to have a great deal of hope in our system if we want the year ahead to be fruitful....

So that`s how things were three days ago..... Now, back to normal. Bumisita ung isang auntie natin kahapon, humirit pa. hehehe!! oh well, its always blessed to give than to receive, right? God`s principle is always effective and true.

The lady who is doing our laundry is in her battle downstairs today trying to finish our tons of dirty clothes. She started very early though and sure will have plenty of time to complete the job.

I gave out a sigh of relief... after all, it has been all worth it.

Until next time guys.... miss you all..